Currently Watching The O.C.: The Complete Seasons 1 & 2 By Peter Gallagher, Kelly Rowan, Benjamin McKenzie, Mischa Barton, Adam Brody, Chris Carmack, Melinda Clarke, Rachel Bilson, Alan Dale, Tate Donovan see related

So school will be officially in for a week tomorrow....  wow, this semester is already going to fly by, i can tell.  So, today, my brother officially moved everything out of his apartment in Lynchburg and down to his new one in Dalton, GA.  I hung out with him as much as I could this weekend and pretty much all last nite.  I'm really going to miss him--he's been here with me my whole time here at Liberty and itll just be so weird not to have him here now...  I cried last nite when I said goodbye to him, which is weird, cuz I really never cry anymore--ive kinda toughened myself up to that show of emotions, but I did cry a lil last nite.  Anyway, he's a good brother, the best, and last nite he gave me some last advice and parting words of wisdom.  I've learned to listen to him too--hes a good judge of character and is usually always right when it comes down to it and his evaluation of people.  He told me not to bother with or even waste my time on people who are just going to use me or people who are so messed up in the head they dont know what they want.  He told me to just keep doing what Im doing and being nice and friendly to people but to be a lil more discerning of people and dont always be so willing to help everyone out no matter what.  Basically he told me I need to look out for myself more and stop trying to please so many damn people all the time so I end up getting screwed over.  He also told me that if Im just genuinely nice to people and outwardly nice, I'll be blessed, and good karma will come back to me.  He gave me good advice about guys too--which I now know to pretty much listen to, since he's always right about this and has always been in the past--I had to learn this the hard way too many times.  He's a really good brother and a great friend to have and to talk to.  Last nite, he also passed along to me the plant formerly known as "The Smoking Tree".  Such a great honor lol.  He and I stole that bush out of DeMoss Hall 1113-1114 last year and it sat on his balcony all year.  We all knew what that tree meant and was signaling when the lights were turned on.  Receiving that tree was kind of like a right of passage to me, lol.  Maybe someday I will pass it on to Bryan too...  So yah, I'm definitely gonna miss having him around here, but he told me I can always go visit him down in Dalton anytime and he'll be comin up to visit too, like for alumni weekend in October, and he reminded me he's only 6hrs away if I ever needed him for anything.  He really is just an awesome brother.

Ok, so enough about that--today I bought the 1st 2 seasons of the OC from Best Buy for only 20 bucks each!!!  Im so excited about that!  Charlie and I also hung out today, he came over and chilled with me at my place and I fixed him a huge pan of lasagna and he ate the whole thing!!!  Boys amaze me with how much they can eat and stay so skinny like Charlie does!!!  He doesnt mind hangin out with me and going random places and just goofin around, which I love.  He's a good replacement for a brother.  Also, yesterday in tumbling I absolutely murdered my back--I landed on it really hard a bunch of times and now its killing me!!!  Last nite I felt it and it was all swollen and at first I thought I had crushed the vertebrae cuz I couldnt feel the ridges sticking out, but it was just really swollen.  Altough I swear I did hear like crushing noises when I landed a couple times yesterday.  I could barely get out of bed this morning and my back is still swollen and killing me!  Oh well, hopefully it will get better with nothing wrong--needless to say I dropped that class, so now Im down to 13 hours.  Oh well....  chemistry is gonna be tough I can already tell so I guess not taking a heavy load is a good thing.  Um, other than that not too much has been goin on.  I worked all weekend like a fiend, oh and Scott and I went to Bentley's and went dancing on Saturday nite--it was pretty fun, but man, we were like 2 of the like 10-15 white people in the whole place!  Who knew Bentley's would become so black... lol...  so thats pretty much it for me here--wow a long post, surprisingly.  Oh yah, Elisha is back in town after his motorcycle accident and that makes me happy, although he has about a 6 month recovery and I almost threw up on Saturday nite after looking at his leg and hearing him talk about it and everything... lol...  alright well thats it.  Later

Currently Listening Surprise By Paul Simon Diamonds on the Souls of Her Shoes see related

Real fast update.  Im in the library at school right now.  The block party is tonite and Im excited to go to that--I want to ride the rides and I hope that bull is there again this year, lol.  Also, in exactly 1 month from today I will be in Charlottesville at the John Paul Jones arena watching the Dave Matthews Band!!!  Im so stoked for that!  So I went back to work yesterday, and it felt really good to be back and workin again.  I didnt do half bad in tips either but I had some of the strangest people come in that I had to serve--Randolph Macon girls--freakin weirdos, lol.  Charlie's back and this makes me super happy!  I saw him yesterday and then we hung out all last nite.  I love that boy to death and have missed him so much, but Im glad hes back!  He's such a great friend, and just like my real older brother, completely overprotective of me.  Scotts comin back this weekend to move his stuff down to GA and we're supposed to go to Bentley's on Saturday--which I'm also excited for!  I cant wait to go dancing again. Um, other than that not a lot has been goin on with me, just chillin with different people from work and what not and seein everyone comin back to school.  I'm ready for school to start, I hate school, but I like being busy with classes and work and stuff--I cant stand just doing nothing.  Oh yah, I died my hair dark brown too on Saturday and I love it!! No more blonde, yay, lol.  I brought in a pic of Rachel Bilson's color and cut and got it done like that, and Im very pleased!  Oh, I have an interview at American Eagle in less than an hour too so pray for me for that to go well!!!  I really really want to work there--good discounts on my kinda clothes, lol. 

So, Ive been thinkin about a lot lately and I dont really know what good it will do me, if I will even listen to myself, but Im basically just sick of being screwed over by people.  It sucks man, I really think I am too nice of a person to people, and they take advantage of me.  Ashley and Charlie and other people are always warning me and telling me to stand up for myself, but I dont know, I guess I feel sorry for people to easily and want to believe the best about them and then they always end up walkin all over me or takin advantage of my good will or good intentions.  Its happened so many times its not even funny.  You think Id learn--it happened freshman year, a lot last year, this summer, and already this year before school has even started!!!  And you know what, it seems to be from the same people over and over and over again.  I know I am guilty of sometimes doing this to people, but I never mean to, it kinda just happens, but seriously the things people do to me, its like, no this is not just an accident.  I dont want to become a bitter callused person towards everyone but I really dont know how to find a happy medium.  It sucks, Im a people person so I cant just become a hermit and hope it all goes away...  I really dont know what to do, but all I know is that Im just freakin fed up with it all.  Do I give off that vibe that Im an easy target to take advantage of because Im goofy and silly and seemingly oblivious to things? I really think people think Im stupid or whatever... well you know what screw them, im not stupid im just carefree and dont try to take life so seriously.   Ok, well now this is just starting to sound like an angry rant, lol, and I dont want it turn into that so Im gonna get goin and get ready to shine in half an hour lol.  Later.